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...movies open you up…stories change you…
"FREE ANGELA"
Not so much the movie in itself, which was more a documentary than anything, pieces put together, some poetry was tried but not necessarily in a successful way, but fortunately nothing else than the facts were truly needed to make it relevant.
Coming out of there, i felt dignified…i felt purposeful…empowered…but i also felt lost (…) as i started to doubt the mechanisms behind my newly enlightened purpose and power.
I realized that i have been trying to materialize revolution into my life for the past years, but doing such by only doubting the world around me.
I had to now admit that my fight was no clever, because I was trying to simply reproduce the "effects" of those who before me had imposed sensitive change, but unlike me they were moving with, by, for and against the "causes".
My observation became that I was seduced by the idea of change but never courageous enough to understand that changes have to be experienced. I was focusing on the global subject of a so called new world but fearing to dig into the details and mechanisms that compose the present world and would describe the future one.
Our time has become one of global consciousness, but won't we always remain intimate creatures ?
For anything to potentially touch us in any way it has to leave the global and enter our intimate sphere, doesn't it?
So why when we think of a better, bigger, fairer world we attack it in a global way without touching this intimate sphere? Isn't the failure certain then? …actually there would not even be case of failure as the file on the issue would have not been opened.
Here we are dressing like revolutionaries, developing the brain of a revolutionary, gathering year after year all the weapons of a real warrior, except the warrior forgets to get up to go to war or better doesn't go to the "good war".
I believe a war for genuine change is before anything pacific in that it is characterized by selflessness and resilience, and can then last and have impact for ages.
In that perspective the warrior can't be defeated, the David can fear no Goliath…
For myself i can say as of today that i did not learn how to be a pacific warrior as i haven't learnt neither the development nor the application of selflessness, as I have neither the ability nor the will to truly revolutionize my intimate circle.
The description of our time being in the self, the definition of the self, the application of the self on other selves, it becomes human survival to protect the self, the intimate circle and therefore when you think about it our actual survival ultimately protects this world from ever changing.
So today...as i watched the story of this woman, Angela Davis, in its every details, i went from a global to intimate perspective of how her story became one of revolution, a universal one not only for a country and a world, but for a time.
I also understood the importance of the articulated mind (not that only a scholar can relevantly have an impact the world !!! we know that is nonsense!), but because the place and the context of where the revolution take place and the revolutionary rises matters.
If it has to take place in this western world, we can't deny the fact that this one is obsessed by the mind and its effect on the global.
How can we then precisely, intricately, purposely shake grounds if we are not able to understand, articulate and then materialize changes in the sphere where you want to see them take place ?
Study, education, knowledge have the potential (and the ultimate purpose) to become and be used as weapons for our pacific war … the rock thrown at Goliath…
But this can only happen once it has been taking out of its academic context and used to question the said context that has produced it. Only then it can be of use for the people, the time and the future's sake…otherwise it is as if David had handed over that rock instead of throwing it…
So today...i truly question the integrity of my personal and intimate sphere, as I realize that it has been shaped like walls of concrete to allow me to survive my many disagreements with the global sphere.
This world has been teaching me how to build my own slit trench, secure it to then hide in it.
My sphere is airtight to allow me to live despite the struggles of my community, of any community.
I can read it in the news and must not be overwhelmed by it to be able to productively go on with my day, that is a common ability we all have right?
But then I wonder how can revolution and change arise if its seed has been taking out of the ground. This seed being the emotional impact that injustice must normally have on human consciousness.
The observation becomes that during our evolution in this world this genuine ability of being thrown by the things we challenge in it is being numbed out. The process of evolution can therefore become one of unwanted dehumanization that will ultimately make us loose the ability to have true impact on humanity ever!
So today…I doubt this strength that i have been building for 27 years, as this strength might have shifted me from the causes of being a human to its effects, this strength might have forbidden me from ever rising my voice for "the people" as i have outdistanced myself from the idea of "people".
If the only change that interest me is one for self, I am a warrior who has already been defeated…by trying to be so strong…
Is the strength then in the fragility of emotions, concerns and selflessness?
Shouldn't the process towards becoming a human nurture all of the human compositions and emotions instead of selecting only the one that are more adaptable to this world?
Shall being "weaker" and therefore more sensitive and aware become the new "strong" and the new sensible?
So today… I am starting to wonder differently as my questions are progressively moving from the global to the intimate.
And I stand there deeply believing that this shift in the mechanism of introspection itself can give to change the potential of a seed instead of a fleeting bouquet (…).
Ca.Dé
